DOUBLEY IMPRESSED

Not only did Jeremy "Houdini" Beagle manage to open the back door, he untied the gate at the top of the stairs and instead of running away came in to the pub with a Kit Kat in his mouth.

I was 4 wines into the night and I saw him walking about the pub. Figured my brother was going to take him out and thats why he was downstairs.That was until Lindsay asked how he got there, so we went upstairs and saw how he had undone the gate. Im so proud, I have raised a genius.

I missed the bucking bronco cos I got to the party too late.It was good, I had a dance and the best egg sandwich ever. Played some weird game which involved putting empty glasses on fire escape signs and did some air guitar.

Its inspired me, I best start planning my leaving do. If I have it there...which would be ok, I was thinking of having a "Mimeoke" night. Like Karaoke only with unplugged instruments and microphones, good lighting and you get on stage and mime to a song.
Yes, this idea came about cos I cannot sing or play an instrument but would like to. I think it would look ace on that stage. We could have costumes and everything. I'd like to receate the version of Glamourous Indie Rock and Roll me Kay and Yarnold performed in Notting Hill last year. We rocked.

I love Mondays, its like my day off. Im going to the Traffordable Centre avec Miss Heyes later to shop for shoes and eat dim sum. Im so excited about the chinese food part. Shame its not as sunny today cos I like it when she puts the roof down on her fancy pants porche and drives me about. You never know, it might get nicer out. We arent going until 1.

Think I blew my chance with the fit guy from Friday night cos I haven't heard from him apart from a few texts from him on Saturday afternoon.Well, he never got to me about the party invite last night.Personally I think Im boxing out of my weight there, he's well out of my league. I dont blame him, I was really rude and strangely insulting. I think I know why I am acting more and more rude to people. I think somewhere in my head my brain knows how hard it will be to say goodbye to everything and everyone I have ever known that if I start upsetting people then they wont care so it will be easier to leave. Shit, that makes no sense. I'm going to have to start facing the fact that I am leaving and handle it a better way than that way. Its exciting but scarey.

I think I need to start looking at it all a different way. I always am very black and white about things, like one thing is good and one thing is bad. Both my life here and my future life there are good so I should stop playing them off against each other by acting like this one here is bad.
This is what I am doing now and thats just pants.