Saturday, August 26, 2006

I FEEL SO UTTERLY DISGUSTING

The more I find out the more I hate myself for falling for it. I proper loved this man.
Now I find out he is nothing what I thought he was.

Told me he was at a funeral in Ireland with his Dad at Christmas.
He spent Christmas with his wife and kids.
Gave her an excuse and spent New Year with his other girlfriend and her kids. Then turns up for me on my birthday on 3rd Jan. I could go on but its too much of a head fuck.Ouch.

Man,he broke my heart. I am such a fool.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

You shouldn't feel disgusting. Anyone would fall for that. You see, regular people don't do this type of thing, thats why uou don't expect it from other people. Cunts of this calibre are the easiest to fall for for that reason. How would you know that anyone would be so cruel, spineless and such a total and utter twat?

I know nothing a stranger on the internet says will make any difference to how you are feeling but whatever happens, don't feel disgusting, don't feel embarassed and don't feel in any way that you should have seen this coming. I wouldn't have.

The only consolation for me would be that he must be a very damaged and sad indivdual if he lives this kind of life. If he has no respect for his wife and kids, he won't have any respect for himself and therefore would never have had any respect for anyone else. Its a good thing that he has gone. I hope something really bad happens to him.